This is a remarkable book, I just finished it. 

Day 86

Yeah, somehow my count was off.  So now I am on day 86!  On Friday I go on vacation for a week, so I won't be back until Monday, June 21st.  I am very happy that I am going.  I don't know what to expect, I have never been to the town my significant other was born in.  We are going back to his family reunion.

Disgruntled

Grrrrrrrrr.  Sigh.  When will this day end?  I am pretty proud of myself for making it through on almost no sleep.  I am going to go home and pamper myself, and watch "Sunshine".

 

I have a conscience

Unbelieveable. The lady who just called lived about 10 houses down from the house I grew up in. Her son went to my grade school...he is my age, so I assume he was in my classes, though I don't remember him by name. So I couldn't sell her. You know your job is slimy when you refer people you like to other departments. Transfer!

Time won't move

When you are starving and excited!

Nervous

I'm dying here. Someone called from the competition...already. I tried to call her and got voice mail. I want to go to lunch, but I am trying to hold off 15 more minutes. I am starving and excited, and I don't know what to do with myself. I could work, but what's the fun in that?

Day 92

The days are going by so fast. Although if I got this new job I could cut the timeframe a lot shorter. I'm a cheater, yep.

Treason

Well, I sent my resume to the competition. They have a 25 hour per week DBA job. Perfect. The emailed me just now to let me know that they are reviewing my resume, and will contact me if I am qualified. Well, I am very qualified. The ad said that a high school diploma was the highest education required. That rocks. I could finish my degree in two years if I worked part time. I hope to god that the pay is good, and that they are interested in me. I interview well, so I hope they give me a shot.

Highly stressed

I am on the edge today. I and fatigued and frustrated. I applied for vacation to go home at 3:00pm. No word yet. I am going to surf for jobs within the company. Stock options are just too lucrative for me to leave completely. I know I am supposed to wait 99 days...I am trying...

Friday, Day 93

It is not a good sign that I am already tensing up this morning. How long can someone survive hating what they do all day? Some people can live their whole lives that way, but I don't think I can do this much longer. 93 days.

Day 94

This day is flying by, what can I say.  It isn't so bad today.

 

Around the office

One of the reasons I prefer co-worker interaction to customer interaction is the equality. In other words, co-workers cannot cuss me out, say they want to deal with a "man", tell me to "go back to India" (even though I am a Jewish mutt from the U.S. of A.), or tell me that my voice sounds sexy and turns them on. I am protected at work, but on the phone with a customer I have to act like all is well. I have to be shat on and like it. A co-worker is in the same position I am; we can't shit on each other. It's nice.

Meetings, Day 95

The days are ticking away, reliably.  I just got back from one meeting, and I will be going to another in 30 minutes.  After that I will be going to lunch, returning at 3:00pm.   Then I will only have half a day left.  My LAN is acting up...hopefully that will resolve itself.  Gotta love working for a Fortune 5 Tech Company.

Home now

I want to go home. Today has been a long day.

Sigh.

I sometimes wonder if I can make it. I am on the edge today. I am so sick of people. Tomorrow I have a 1x1 meeting with my manager. I think I might tell him that I want out, that I want to move to a new position.

I am worried about losing so much face that I will not have a future at this company. If it wasn't for that, I would do it in a second.